Thoughts on Relationships...Well, mine anyway...

I am engaged to marry a great guy. (hi, Justin! Never thought I'd write that would you?)
No, seriously. I really do have a great guy. A godly guy. For you girls out there young, matured, who know what I'm talking about can I please get an "AMEN" to the blessings a godly man can bring? Really. There's nothing in Hollywood that can match the greatness of being in such a relationship.

A book I recommend outside the Bible that I believe helped me turn my heart back over to God? The Secrets of an Irresistible Woman by Michelle McKinney Hammond. Ms. Hammond, thank God for your gift of insight. Thank you for writing what you wrote and for having the guts to tell it like it is. Did I tell you that I am one of your biggest fans?

Can I have your autograph?

I remember the first time I read this book, I was in a relationship that was not Godly at all. Oh, don't get me wrong, I wasn't an atheist, or anything, just a girl who grew up with religion and no Jesus relationship.

I am by no means a perfect woman now. But I would like to say that quite a few things have changed in my life because the God that I barely gave a second glance at, kept His entire focus, attention, love,k and mercy upon me as I ran around dragging my mess everywhere. Let me just say that years of garbage dragged around starts to leave a noticeable stench in the places I chose to stop and rest at before I finally dumped the trash bag and headed back home to God.

The walk was not and is still not easy to this day, but as each day passes, I am grateful that at the very least, as I walk, my steps are a bit lighter without the weight of the trash bag. Much lighter.

I was single for two years, just enjoying life, kinda poking around at a Christian church my mom took the entire family to. I re-met my soon-to-be husband at a 20 Somethings ministry he lead for his church. Started to date. Now we are planning for our wedding coming up very soon. Time truly flies.

Never knew a Godly relationship until him. Haven't been as happy, as struggling, as wrestling with God, as growing as much as I have experienced in this relationship.

I look back on who I was before God and what it caused me to carelessly do with my heart. And I am thankful that I serve a God that loves me enough gently turn my eyes forward towards "a hope and a future". (Jeremiah 29:11)